Everyone has moods. Everyone also has emotional orbits around loved ones. The orbit around each loved person is different according to the relationship that one has with that individual. Orbits are almost never perfectly round. There are times when one is closer to someone than at other times. One’s mood helps to determine where on that orbit you happen to be.
Some people go through predictable, yearly cycles, such as people who have Seasonal Affective Disorder (a.k.a. – “SAD”). Others, like me, have unpredictable cycles and, therefore, unpredictable orbits. There are times when I am much closer and much more willing to interact with my loved ones than at other times. It is just a fact of who I am. I came to terms with this long ago, as have many members of my family.
Every once in a while, a loved one will remind me that I’ve been out of touch for too long. This happened earlier today in an e-mail from a dear friend, Renae. It’s not that anything is wrong. It’s not that I’m angry. It’s not anything but me, my self, and the distance that I need on occasion. In other words, it happens. I love my family. I love my friends. Sometimes, though, I just need some space on the outermost point of my orbit.
That’s just the way I am.
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